The Yellow Door Life

“There are many wonderful things that will never be done if you do not do them.” 

-Charles D. Gill

Today, as I neared the end of my hike, I paused for a couple minutes before I got to Mount Sinai.

I took this loop in reverse today, so it pulled differently on my body. Where I was used to travelling downhill, I had gone uphill. 

It seemed longer. It weighed heavier. I really didn’t know if I had it in me to go all the way. 

As I sat on the bench to catch my breath, I had a distinct peace in me. 

I knew I had taken that way for a reason. I had wanted to challenge myself and gain some new perspective. 

Something as simple as taking a trail the opposite way as you are used to, provides immense clarity. 

While sitting there, I felt God say, “You have to do the hard stuff first.” 

There are things in my life right now that must be completed. There are goals I’m working toward. There is healing and growth that must occur in me, before I can pursue some dreams that hold great meaning for me. 

The simplest way for me to explain it all is that I’m running a race and I’ve got to find the motivation for the last stretch. 

I know when the next chapter starts in my life, or at least the one I’m planning, so I’m trying to pace myself accordingly. 

The last stretch is always the hardest part. 

For some of my goals, it seems like I’ve been in the last stretch forever, but that’s because I’ve given in to the temptation that rears its head at this point and says that there is no point. 

Give in. Give up. Move on. 

Not this time. 

This time is too important. This time it’s all in. Push through every bit of tension and do the damn thing. 

It’s uncomfortable, but necessary. 

I feel weary. My body aches. But the rest of my story is on the other side of this race.

Lord, I am feeling burnt out. I’m not used to pushing myself like this. There have been so many times where I have tapped out and exited the race at this point because it has gotten too hard. It feels like too much. 

I’m asking today that you sustain me through the last stretch. 

Please give me peace when my mind wanders and begins to worry about the “what ifs.” 

Please grant me clarity when I question whether I am on the right path. 

Please give me strength and courage to start leveling up and coming out of my comfort zone. 

Please continue to prepare my mind, heart, and body for what comes next. 

I know you have never let me down and I know this time is no exception. 

Please always remind me that you are by my side as I put one foot in front of the other and propel myself forward.

In your name.

Amen. 

❤